This is where I feel like I hear you the most. I feel safe and in your arms when I am here. Nothing or no one can bother me when I am here with you. The way the air smells,the sound of the ocean,the warm sand on my feet and the cool but warm air around me all reminds me of you. I can hear you whisper your sweet words in my ear and I can feel your loving arms wrap around me when the wind blows. I need you now Lord. Be close to me in my saddness. Tell me that everything will be ok. Never leave me alone.

Why is it that we pay so much attention to the “bad” guys who treat us like crap but ignore the “good” guys who treat us like princesses?

I found myself asking this question today. I get so upset when a guy treats me horribly but I continue to let him treat me that way. But I tend to,maybe not ignore,but not pay as much attention to the nice guy who would never hurt me. Is it because I know that he will always be there? Maybe it’s because I feel like I need to be more to keep the bad guys attention but the nice guy will always love me the way that I am.

It’s how a treat God sometimes. I tend to ignore him sometimes because I know that He will never leave me and his love for me will never change. So,if I just don’t feel like acting like I should I will just ignore God and do whatever I want to do. But at the end of the day I will always end up in the arms of God. He will always be the one who I run to and am drawn to. Same with the guy. I will always end up with the good guy.

I wish that I would stop paying attention to the bad guys all together. I either just want to “help” them or maybe for some odd reason they just seem to interest me. Either way they are unhealthy. God wants me to be treated like a princess so why not wait for the good guy that I know He will send me one day.

Just a thought…

How Do I Love Thee?
poem by Elizabeth Barrett Browning

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.
I love thee to the depth and breadth and height
My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight
For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.

I love thee to the level of everyday’s
Most quiet need, by sun and candlelight.
I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;
I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.

I love thee with the passion put to use
In my old griefs, and with my childhood’s faith.
I love thee with a love I seemed to lose
With my lost saints, I love thee with the breath,
Smiles, tears, of all my life! and, if God choose,
I shall but love thee better after death.

Sometimes,I have no idea where my life is going. What do I want? What does God want? Why won’t He tell me what he wants? Lately I have really been struggling with the death of my dad. I miss having a daddy who takes care of me. I miss sitting in his lap. Without him I feel like I have to be that much tougher. I have to make sure no body takes advantage of me or walks all over me. I feel like I have no father to lead me. I know that I will always have God but a part of me will always be missing. Everyday is a new day with new challenges. I will fall,I will make mistakes,and sometimes I will give up. But I will get up again and keep going. Blessings are sent to us everyday we just have to see the world through Gods eyes. This is the life that God has chosen for me and blessed me with…this is my journey

Sunday some of My Closest friends left to go on a mission trip for 11 months. Chad and Leslie Jowers. It was a very hard goodbye that I did not expect. Things don’t effect me until the last minute so I was totally not expecting the emotions.

I met Chad and Leslie a year ago when they started helping out in the youth group. They became close friends fast. I have a lot of good memories with both of them and I cannot wait to see them again. I am sad that they had to leave but very excited for them. It’s hard when you have to say goodbye but this is what god calls us to do. To go out and spread the word. I cannot wait until God sends me.

Chad and Leslie I pray for you everyday and I love you both so much! Be safe!

Daddy’s little girl paints the world with her magic wand
Daddy’s little child breathes new life to the morning time for me
Though we’re apart, her thoughts follow me
When I come home, she smiles with the dawn
she smiles, and she radiates the glow around her halo
When she plays, she smiles
On a summer day, she smiles
A new day, she smiles

Daddy’s little girl ties a ribbon around my heart
Daddy’s little child waves goodbye to the ocean tide that sweeps me
Though we’re apart, she’s a part of me

she smiles with the dawn
she smiles and she radiates the glow around her halo
When she plays, she smiles
On a summer day, she smiles
A new day, she smiles

When I come home, she smiles with the dawn
she smiles and she radiates the glow around her halo
When she plays, she smiles
On a summer day, she smiles
A new day, she smiles

When the days have gone grey,
Nothing’s wrong when she smiles

Sometimes life seems scary,impossible,and hopeless. Satan will speak lies into our lives making us believe these things and I have learned that it really is up to us to fight back. Satan only has power if we give it to him.

God has blessed my life in so many ways this year. I have had my share of trials but God has blessed me with so much because of them. God has really been teaching me how to place my burdens in his hands and to leave them there. Its really hard not to take my life into my own hands but I know that God can take care of it much better than I can.

He has also been teaching me how to wait. Which is also very hard. I just want to get up and go and find everything that I am looking for and to have everything that I desire. But God wants us to wait for a reason. Whats that reason? I have no clue. But I know with all my heart that he does. Its hard to give up when things look so dark but I encourage everyone to keep holding on and to keep pressing into the Lord. Seek him out and wait on Him. Never take a step without him. And no matter what he asks you to do be willing.

No matter what happens God IS in control and nothing that happens is a surprise to him.

In your surrender
As you lay down your life
You took up a sinners cross
And your live rescued mine

In this redemption
Love and mercy display
Lifting my eyes to see
That your truth never fails

Lord of the heavens
King of all days
Without you my world slips away
Redeemed by your mercy
Consumed by your grace
Now I live for you

I’m found in the arms of love
Your love it has saved my soul
I’ll run to your arms of love
Your life’s gonna lead me home

Glorious savior
In your light I am free
If things of this world will fail
Still you’re all that I need

Lord of the heavens
King of all days
Without you my world slips away
Redeemed by your mercy
Consumed by your grace
Now I live for you

I’m found in the arms of love
Your love it has saved my soul
I’ll run to your arms of love
Your life’s gonna lead me home

(And) at your cross
I lay my burden
At your feet
Where your love covers
All I’ve done
Now I walk with you lord

I’m found in the arms of love
For your love it has saved my soul
I’ll run to your arms of love
Your life’s gonna lead me home

Sometimes I complain so much it even drives me crazy. I find so many things to be unhappy about and I find myself upset and stressed out because everything isn’t going my way.

Last night I went to bed and couldn’t fall alseep. God began to tell me about all the things that I have to be thankful for.

I am so thankful that I can walk

I can see

I can talk

I have a family

I have people who love me

I have a beautiful place to live

I have enough money to get by

I have things

I have friends

I have God in my life. I am so thnkful that he placed me in a home with a family who loves God and brought me up to.

These are just a few things that I have to be thankful for. God really spoke to me. I can either complain about the things that I don’t have or be thankful for the things that I do have. I take advantage of the little things so much but in truth the little things are such big things. I love being able to see Gods creation and walk around on it:)

I already miss you so much! But I am so very proud of you:) You have been a amazing friend and leader for the past three years. You have been there for me through the good times and the bad. I will miss you but once again I am very proud of you. I am glad that you made it to Romania safely and I hope you enjoy the next year and a half. You are going to have your ups and downs but God will always be with you..and I will be here praying for you everyday. The next year and a half is going to be a amazing journey for you:) I love you and I can’t wait to see you again!!