Lately, I have felt alone. My relationship with God has been different also. Why? I am not really sure. God has really been working in my life lately. It’s been hard because I have had to face many challenges. Sometimes I would take the challenges and run with them and other times I would try to run away from them. I have come to realize though that God really does know best. Yes,I have always known that But now I fully understand it. I will never understand why sometimes we have to go through what we go through but no matter what God is in control. I have learned not to look at things as a human but to try to Look at things like God would. I will never be able to understand things fully like God but it does show me that no matter what nothing is impossible. Even the most impossible situations are nothing to God. He is all powerful. God has really been showing me more of him just in a harder way. But I am willing to go through and to do anything to get closer to God. Thats kinda scary to say but I know that God is in control and he is my protection.

Sarah-I love you to death. I know how you feel with all the health stuff. Yea girl it sucks but just remember no matter what the doctor tells you God is still in control of your body. Nothing is to big for him. I know what it’s like to fear the future and to fear that you will never be able to have what your heart desires. Doctors have told me some of the same things. But I know that God is in control and he will give me what I long for:) I love you sweet sis.

Lord,I love you so much and all I want is your will. Sometimes I feel so lost and I really don’t know what your will is. God I pray that you reveal yourself to me. Show me where you want me and what you want me to do. God sometimes it’s really hard for me to do what you want me to do but no matter how hard it is I will always do it. I love you and I have given my life to you. I belong to you. Show me your love. Reveal yourself to me as my father and protector. Show me that no matter what you will always love me. Show me where you want me God and I will go. Help me to be brave and fearless. Show me what is truth. Help me through those hard times that break my heart. Help me through those times when I feel lonely. Help me through those times when I am scared. Help me to be more like you. Forgive me God for being selfish,unforgiving,unloving and judgmental. Help me to be more like you God. I love you Daddy.